It's the 28th Dec 2004... obviously it may be seen at the date of blog :P ~
Hmm, it's the first day being 20 year old... want to know how's it like?
Great way of experiencing it virtually ~ Join in... pack on your braveness, & pop on the amazing 3D-glasses ~ Haha, not that bad, but... feel it ;)

20 years of age... i am living on a place call Earth ~ yes, a wonderful world... 20 years of experience. This is the checkpoint where the journey of career begins. At such age, what's in my mind now is that... 'What shall i do to have a better life?' ~ Yes, maturity & deep thoughts ~

Alright, i can say, i've gone through the phase of growing up... constantly, i'm delighted i've changed...
From an extra-talkative, extra-cheerful & extra-active me... into a non-chalant, deep thinking, somehow quiete ~ still cheerful, but just at times, & not so active but focused person.
I've changed... & i'm happy for that ~ Thinking... & thinking, & thinking... this is going to be part of my change ~

Well, everything will change. Missions & targets will be set, this is what i have running in my mind ~ Achievement & wonder... & wonder, will always strike the thoughts ~ Just wondering, keep wondering... & things ain't the same anymore. I've being more stable, in a way of action, thoughts, & communication. Hmm, all experiences for the past 19 years will be a total flashback ~ & truly this is what i've got... dreams & dreams & dreams when i was asleep... it has been consecutively lasted a week before i turned 20.

Interestingly, all the reflection... memories... in me ~ & i have good & bad moments... laughs in sleep & cried in sleep - all due to the dreams... ok ~ all the replays of being a kid until i've grown up ~ it's just as if you're at the seat of driving different cars having all of its own sensation & feeling ~ Marvellous!

Alright... & decision making will change. The total concept of maturity come into play ~ Doing things very decisive, fast & accurate. Thought of something, i'll straightaway go for it... Eg. i thought of mopping the floor today, i ended up mopping the whole of upstairs of my house. ~ Indeed, everything is different, & oh yes, being a 20 year old, things change isn't it? So does your appetite, i've been eating lesser, but faster digestion. So i've to eat more meals, but couldn't eat more than the sufficient amout of food at one time. Haha, interesting isn't it? It varies anyhow.

So, enjoy being 20 now... more to come ;) ~ Cheer people... ^-^ 3 days before countdown to new year 2005 :D Happy... as always ~

hi hi ha ha ho ho ho ~

HaPpy BirThDaY to Me
haPPy bIrThDaY to ME
haPpY BiRtHdaY to mE - eE
HaPpY bIrThDay To MEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

wahahahhaa... 20th birthday ~ wuuuuuuuuuuuu

yay yay yay!!! ^-^' hehe... joyous day ~ it's 3:30am... & i'm awake ;)
cheer ~

oo... i've been sleeping at around 10pm... & woke up at 2:15am...
& the very next thing i saw... was my handphone :O ~ haha... 8 messages received...

3 from my best friend... :P (a little overly wonder why i slept early, she thought)
1 from my beloved sis, 1 more from another sis, 1 from another best friend, 1 from a good net friend, & lastly, 1 from my best net friend... :P

haha, all these ain't a matter of which is which... because, they're really the BEST of the REST ~ really... i was SO touched by it... i thought 'well, i'll stay awake to do something' ~ without much expectation, i didn't really thought of any messages from anyone :O ~ again... thank you so much... ;)

hmm... shall i be blogging at 3:30am :P ~ haha... this is interesting, the earliest - LATEST in the night, i've ever blogged... :P ~ never have i been doing such at this time :P ~ hehe... probably, i'll try to stay awake for the entire night, to see what sort of ways i'll get... i would love to see the excitement...

anyway, BIRTHDAY ~ it's nothing much... it's just a great day, when one should thank their PARENTS... for giving birth to raising up... ~ i shall say, mum is the one... who give birth to us... dad is the one, who raise us up through education... lots of thanks to them... never ending thanks... till the end of your life ~

hmm... i'm very grateful... that i'm so much lucky to be borned... BIRTHDAY... a day to celebrate... the growth, maturity... everything... it's a CHANGE... to be a better man ~ peace & happiness :)

once again...

HaPPY BIRtHdaY to MEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee v^-^v

ooh... 2 days before X'mas ~ Cheer cheer cheer ^-^
hehehe... hmmm, how nice could that be... love it...
maybe i shall say, there's more besides X'mas...
eh hem eh hem... *hint hint hint*
hehe ~ well... what've i done today? hmm... nothing much
woke up around 10am... slept late... that's why
then... didn't even step out of the house for the whole day...
went online, download...
then... 4pm+ i slept again...
i think i've been in a phase of recovering...
due to a backache... i sprained my back 3 days ago when i was asleep
therefore, i slept from 4pm till 7pm... wow... ~
not to say that i'm lazy... but, it's a good heal to my back ^-^v
hmm... then, i watched tv... & gosh... forgot to bath :P
so, bathed after i watched tv & ate my dinner :)
haha... clean after that...
went online, download... & music... again... AGAIN!!!
haha, & now here i am... Xanga ;)
so, after this... i'll read my novel... yup, novel
written by Stephen King ;) entitled 'Christine'
hehe... haven't been reading novels lately, gonna spend holidays useful.
up till now, cheer... & i can't wait for 12am... X'mas eve!!! YES!

It's the 22nd December 2004... 3 days before X'mas... & 5 days before... eh hem... you know what :P ~ That's a SPECIAL day ~ hahaha... anyway, 3 days before X'mas & 9 days before the last day of 2004... which is New Year eve ~ ^0^ ho ho ho... happy ~

Well, i'm really grateful... grateful to a PERSON, who really made me thought so deeply... yesterday ~ a change... a change in me, is really much the POSITIVE side... i love that ~ Hmm, i'm growing up... & indeed turning 20 soon... yup... the digit carries a '2' in it... fears me... because, once it strikes on TWO... it's going to be FAST to get THREE... FOUR... FIVE... on & on :P ~ haha

Alright, whatever reason it is... i'm OPTIMISTIC looking forward, as i've made my first change, a NEW personality... the mature Jason is on his way... & you can 'smell' it's still very much 'cooking' ~ because... it will be real 'HOT' when it's 'READY' ~ :P truly speaking... it'll be 'cooked' for a few... um, 5 days ~ no matter it's 'fry', 'stir-fry', 'steam', 'boil', etc... it's the NEW me... i can't wait for that ~

Actually, i've changed... somehow... not a sudden change & revert back to the OLD me... but... a change for good... for the improvement... i won't disappoint the person who really helped me in it... i don't want tot see her get hurt again... because, that night alone, i REALISED i've hurt her the DEEPEST, & that make me a guilty person... for once ~ Sorry again for that, i guess i finally realised how DEEPLY hurt you were... i'm sincerely sorry, & will change to be a BETTER man, to you. :)

Ok, so people, X'mas... it's ringing it's bell... very soon, you may see X'mas man... oops... i mean Santa Claus in town... (sadly, our country doesn't snow) ~ nevermind, try Ice Skating at Sunway Pyramid... you can see 'snow' :P ~ haha... actually, Santa Claus has already came to town... i've seen him at Midvalley Megamall last Friday :O ~ indeed... he brought along a cute girl... Santarina :P yup... there's this Santarina there... indeed... but, sadly i didn't take a shot with them :( ~ Nevertheless, i could feel the SENSATIONAL warm & happy feelings of X'mas ~ Cherish the day people ^-^

Hmm, so, what's on New Year then? Countdown? Try something new... bring along your partner... to the clock tower, or maybe a romantic place... say, top of a hill... haha, maybe you could do it in the car... start counting, & there goes THREE... TWO... O-N-E !!!!!! This is IT... THIS is IT... BOOM ~ I LOVE YOU :P ha??? o_o' ~ sorry folks... it's Happy New Year :P ~ Yup... enjoy ^-^' ~

Well well well, after all this... one big word. CHEERS! May all of you be BLESSED by the LOVEABLE season of X'mas & New Year... Again, Merry Christmas & Happy New Year everyone ~ Hugs :D

Well well well... it's been a merry holidays for me so far ~ Freedom as i shall say :)

Hmm, but the thing is... I've no places to go :( ~ no one to go out with... sad ~ sigh, everyone's busy with their things... that's pretty normal... this is life ~ i guess it is...

Um, what've i done lately, nothing much, lack of patience to blog... one thing i found out is... i've changed... yes, i've CHANGED! :S

To the better or worse, i reluctantly wonder...

Firstly, i'm getting more on temper... slightly minor things can irritate me very easily ~ likewise, just being more & more impatient. Then, i'm losing my self-timing... i don't wake up on time, don't clean up on time, don't eat on time, don't sleep on time... i'm very unscheduled, making my life a total mess... Lastly, i'm more akin to use my PC... i'm always online... always... always... absolutely, in a day, i'll turn my PC an on-off 4-5 times... miraculously, i'm still having such way...

Well, thing is... i noticed i'm now... deeper in thoughts... & could easily think better, which is a good point, i guess... before giving a reply to anyone else... say, SMS, online chatting, phone conversation, face-to-face talking, etc... i've been thinking more & more before i speak... but... likewise... LESSER ~ in a phrase, it mean SHORTER SENTENCES... i really do wonder...

In just a short 1 week... i've noticed as well... i felt matured, behaved differently... to EVERYONE... i guess last week was the only time i went out talking that much & a little of a joke here & there... but that, was another factor, that's a RELAXATION for myself after exam... i'm now back to some serene... & peaceful moments... i can stay silent for the whole day, not talking to anyone... even PARENTS... i'm getting out of the notch... worry, but FUN ~

Friends... it's another factor... i'm now getting tired of knowing new friends... i think that's because recently... that was... last Friday... i got to know this friend of my BEST FRIEND (even my BEST FRIEND doesn't really like this person) ~ This friend, named N, i can say... is somehow the BOOST of HATRED i ever had... Firstly... i thought it was OK, until then i found out she's just STAYING very NEAR to Midvalley... Taman Seputeh, hello!!! She couldn't even try walking there... causing my best friend to PICK her up... disaster, my best friend never know the place... we had a roller-coaster ride, & gone opposing the traffic by crossing another junction, to U-turn, which is by-law, WRONG ~ N took us another roller-coaster ride, by directing us hell of a loss... in the end, i made the decision to get the route from her, & we made it in the end... DESTINATION ~

Guess what, she came up the car as if she's some PRINCESS... & without hesitation, & as well without some apologies of making us go the BIG ROUND to her house... straight away, she just talk... lots of gibberish ~ & she's just greeted me... weird... i don't feel nice ~ One thing i found out that, she seemed snobbish... & very much appaling, she described herself 'Sorry, i'm a little bit bitchy' ~ Wow, how could anyone describe themself such a way :O ~ Nevermind, in my mind, i thought she's of such ~ But, that don't come to my mind then...

Later, ho ho... after long awaiting her, we're all hungry (except her, that she said've eaten - kanasai, what a good preparation of herself)... so, we stopped at a spot & wanted to go for lunch, guess what she said 'oh i'm not hungry, lets go & shop... i wanna buy bla bla bla...' ~ I was quite irritated... & i said i'm hungry, God knows it ~ & luckily, my mind just tick & i said 'Pizza Hut!' ~ Following then, this N said 'oh, i've an offer card of Pizza Hut (took out the card slowly from the purse in her bag... flickering), it says... 30% discount... but, do you mind to wait a 15mins? It's starting only at 2:30pm' ~ Know what? The time is 2pm & she said... a 15mins... before entering ~ Stupid... i said, no... lets go in ~ So we had our lunch... she talked & talked on ~ i remained pretty much silent until i've finished my lunch... & yes, i served as well during lunch as i'm the only guy out of 4 person... ~ Lastly she said this, 'oh, you know what? You've been talking non-stop since we're in the car, aren't you tired? & why do you keep serving this & that... i don't want anymore... i'm not HUNGRY' ~

In my mind, i was really furious... consumed with rage... wanted to ignore her a total... & fight back with words... sadly, i ain't... i took the decision to IGNORE... because talking to such people is a WASTE of TIME ~ My oh my... this such RUBBISH 'PRINCESS' ~ they don't worth a single bit of FRIENDSHIP ~ She's very much of an ORDER... POSSESIVE person, she wants something, she wants it... never say a NO ~ Guess what, if this type of girl is my GIRLFRIEND... i'm seriously going to DITCH her a.s.a.p ~ they don't respect guys an inch... you thought guys are what? Serving you, you should be very much honoured, somehow giving such a gesture... It's just RIDICULOUSLY UNMANNERED!!!

Why... i would never ever going to see this N in my life... this is totally a TREMENDOUSLY irritated day of my life... peace ever ~

Ok... all i would like to say, i've said... i'm such relieved now... & i should thank 3 of my great friends for cheering me up... again ~ Chowy, Jin & Sarah (thanks Sarah... you're the BEST.. hugs! )

Have a good day people ^-^v ~ SMILE :D